i hate having memories about the past. it really buries me deeper into the ground. hiding from civilization. but i cant help it. every time i see a place where we had memories, i crumble.

sometimes i just wish life was easier. i trusted after being fooled by me. i believe in faith after knowing it is real. i would think before acting doing silly things. if i just realized all this before, we would still be.

but whats done is done. i cant rewrite the past. i can only ponder to the future and await what it has in store for me.

im getting over it. i dont think about it anymore. but like i said, i cant forget great and wonderful memories. just the thought alone makes me ...

rick.